I'm really good at eating out. I have this weird idea that it is faster and more convienient to eat out than it is to eat at home. My subconsious knows that it's fast and easier to eat at home.

My biggest problem with this is during the week, especially during the lunch hour. My son is a half day Kindergartener and I work as a Lunch Room Supervisor at the school and it's so easy to grab something to eat on our way home from school. The silly thing is that we have to pass home to get to some place to eat, so it's also a waste of time and gas.

Yesterday and today my son and I had lunch at home and I'm really pround of myself that I made the decision not to eat out and stuck with it. I need to make a big deal out of the good decisions because it helps me continue to make good decisions, so here's to me !!!

I haven't posted here in a really long time and I need to. Since my last post I have come to accept the fact that I am a compulsive debtor/spender. My DH and I have cancelled all our credit cards and that has been a big help, but I'm still having a little trouble with the spending. It's getting better because I only have so much to work with and there are things that HAVE to be paid and those things obviously get paid first, but I'm still not good at sticking to only the necessities.

I've done really well the last 4 days. I have only bought the necessities and that means I only went to the store 1 time.

Here's to tommorrow!

Over the weekend I took a few steps in the right direction. I have a huge problem with fast food. I know how bad it is for you, but the convenience (well, what I have convinced myself is convenience) is the big draw. We ate lunch out on Saturday, but it was with my mom & dad and they paid. Sunday we didn't eat out at all. Today has been a different story. After I left school this afternoon with my son he says, "Mom, can we go to McDonald's please?" It was cold and rainy and I gave in. I feel slightly disgusted with myself, but I don't feel as guilty as I have in the past and I'm not sure why. I did however, feel enormous guilt when the total came up on the screen. $10.37 for two of us to eat lunch. How outrageous is that? I know I could have definitely used that $10 for something else, putting it in savings, using it to pay on a bill, anything other than what I used it on. I need to keep those thoughts in the forefront on my mind when those opportunities come up. The day isn't over, so I will have more opportunities to say no to spending for things we don't need. The only good thing that came out of it is that I paid cash for it. I guess that's a pretty small consolation prize, but a prize non the less.